A Rockin' Tribute...

I feel like I want to say "I wish you could've been there," but I KNOW that you WERE there. Your presence was totally undeniable.

I couldn't believe the turnout (although I would have preferred it more wall-to-wall) there was just every great person from your past--bandmate and friend. Every set was complete except for your open spot. Which was the most beautiful and saddest thing I've ever seen. When they set up your pink guitar, I lost it. I still can't believe I'll never see you play it again. Guido's was so awesome, I think they actually piped in tracks of you drumming. I hope that you don't mind, I told Johnny that I know you have nothing but love and forgiveness now--I could tell how troubled he was, and I know you'd want him to have some peace.

Justin played with the Bugs (or was it the Buggs? I don't remember). I was so proud of him. I know you were so proud of him.


It was awesome to see Steve, Bruce and Stevie together. I still wish I would have been allowed to come to a Brat Jam.


I had really great talks with EVERYone. I had long talks with Dan and Anita, which brought us all to sobs...I had a great talk with Lori and a few with Mike. I had many great talks with Morgan--I can't believe I've never met her before--I feel like we would have been great friends from the start--I hope we can become great friends.

I decided (at Morgan's awesome prompting) to get behind a mic at the end of the night. Thankfully I let Morgan take the lead...but it was still fun. It was nice to feel like I was part of your world for a minute.

Now that it's over...I don't know what comes next. Everything is done...what will keep us all going and moving forward...?

I hate to admit that I needed to know that all of those people hurting as much as I am, weeks later I need to know that others haven't yet dried their tears. I hope you know how much you're missed. How much you're loved. How we can never, ever forget you.

We love you so much. I love you so, so much. I'll never stop missing you.
I'll give the little man a big kiss for you.
I'll talk to you soon. Ok, ok bye.