Looking Out For Me...?

So it's been...ya know...difficult around here. I've had to put a few people "in their place". And a few have pushed back.

You know I'm having a bit of a...shall we say...home-life "situation". I need you Dad. Now that I don't have you to turn to, I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to or what to think. I need you to tell me if I'm crazy or overreacting. Let's be serious, I need YOU to tell me I'm RIGHT.

I feel like I'm constantly searching for signs. Looking for you in everything. I've never had someone watching over me before and I feel like I need to lose myself in it to get through.

I still can't believe how much I'm reaching for my phone to call you or text you. Almost every single time I get in the car. I've never needed to talk to some one I couldn't talk to before, and I feel like I'm tongue-tied.

I need you to find a way to talk back Dad....you've got a direct line, and I promise, I'm listening....

I miss you. I love you. I'll give your little buddy-boy a kiss for you.
Talk to you soon. Ok. Ok, bye.